diff --git a/Cargo.lock b/Cargo.lock
index e263ccd..5bf136d 100644
--- a/Cargo.lock
+++ b/Cargo.lock
@@ -914,6 +914,26 @@ version = "2.3.1"
 source = "registry+https://github.com/rust-lang/crates.io-index"
 checksum = "e3148f5046208a5d56bcfc03053e3ca6334e51da8dfb19b6cdc8b306fae3283e"
 
+[[package]]
+name = "pin-project"
+version = "1.1.5"
+source = "registry+https://github.com/rust-lang/crates.io-index"
+checksum = "b6bf43b791c5b9e34c3d182969b4abb522f9343702850a2e57f460d00d09b4b3"
+dependencies = [
+ "pin-project-internal",
+]
+
+[[package]]
+name = "pin-project-internal"
+version = "1.1.5"
+source = "registry+https://github.com/rust-lang/crates.io-index"
+checksum = "2f38a4412a78282e09a2cf38d195ea5420d15ba0602cb375210efbc877243965"
+dependencies = [
+ "proc-macro2",
+ "quote",
+ "syn",
+]
+
 [[package]]
 name = "pin-project-lite"
 version = "0.2.13"
@@ -2270,6 +2290,7 @@ dependencies = [
  "lazy_static",
  "log",
  "nix",
+ "pin-project",
  "quinn",
  "rand",
  "reqwest",
diff --git a/Cargo.toml b/Cargo.toml
index 73d79be..7d6c981 100644
--- a/Cargo.toml
+++ b/Cargo.toml
@@ -77,6 +77,7 @@ nix = { version = "0.27", optional = true, default-features = false, features =
 # tokio-xmpp if you want a ServerConnector impl
 tokio-xmpp = { version = "4.0", optional = true, default-features = false }
 tokio-util = { version = "0.7", optional = true, features = ["codec"] }
+pin-project = "1" # todo: optional?
 
 [features]
 default = ["c2s-incoming", "c2s-outgoing", "s2s-incoming", "s2s-outgoing", "tls", "quic", "websocket", "webtransport", "logging", "tls-ca-roots-native", "systemd", "tokio-xmpp"]
diff --git a/src/in_out.rs b/src/in_out.rs
index d411ef8..2ee5a8c 100644
--- a/src/in_out.rs
+++ b/src/in_out.rs
@@ -139,8 +139,7 @@ pub struct StanzaStream {
     wr: StanzaWrite,
     rd: StanzaRead,
 
-    fut_next_stanza: Option<u64>,
-
+    fut_next_stanza: Option<Pin<Box<dyn Future<Output = Result<Option<(&'static [u8], usize)>>> + Send>>>,
     send_stream_open: bool,
     stream_open: Vec<u8>,
 
@@ -194,6 +193,10 @@ impl StanzaStream {
         }
     }
 
+    pub async fn next_stanza_vec(&mut self) -> Result<Option<(Vec<u8>, usize)>> {
+        self.next_stanza().await.map(|o| o.map(|(v, u)| (v.to_vec(), u)))
+    }
+
     pub async fn next_stanza<'a>(&'a mut self) -> Result<Option<(&'a [u8], usize)>> {
         if self.send_stream_open {
             self.send_stream_open = false;
@@ -246,10 +249,16 @@ impl AsyncRead for StanzaStream {
     fn poll_read(mut self: std::pin::Pin<&mut Self>, cx: &mut std::task::Context<'_>, buf: &mut tokio::io::ReadBuf<'_>) -> std::task::Poll<std::io::Result<()>> {
         // todo: instead of waiting for a whole stanza, if self is AsyncRead, we could go directly to that and skip stanzafilter, problem is this would break Stream::poll_next and XmppStream::next_stanza, so maybe we need a different struct to do that?
         // todo: instead of using our StanzaFilter and copying bytes from it, we could make one out of the buf?
-        let future = self.next_stanza();
-        // self.fut_next_stanza = Some(future);
-        let future = std::pin::pin!(future);
-        match future.poll(cx) {
+        let mut future = match self.fut_next_stanza.take() {
+            Some(fut) => fut,
+            None => {
+                let this: &'static mut std::pin::Pin<&mut Self> = unsafe { std::mem::transmute(&mut self) };
+                let future = this.next_stanza();
+                Box::pin(future)
+            }
+        };
+
+        match future.as_mut().poll(cx) {
             std::task::Poll::Ready(res) => {
                 if let Some((stanza, _)) = res.map_err(|e| IoError::other(e))? {
                     if stanza.len() >= buf.remaining() {
@@ -260,7 +269,7 @@ impl AsyncRead for StanzaStream {
                 return Poll::Ready(Ok(()));
             }
             std::task::Poll::Pending => {
-                // self.fut_next_stanza = Some(future);
+                self.fut_next_stanza = Some(future);
                 std::task::Poll::Pending
             }
         }